The girl, Elizabeth, who I thought was so incredibly independent relies more on what people think than....well, most people that I have met. So much for being yourself.
Now Tybeans has a girlfriend. Which is great for him.
I am just so incredibly depressed and angry. And for some reason I just can't believe any of it.
I am mad at Elizabeth for blaming me for not taking her to Slumdog Millionaire although I had 33 hours of Fiddler that week. And was planning on setting up. Which I learned would have been a really bad idea. She is a perfectly rational, capable human being. Who knows how to drive. And I don't feel guilty. I just can't believe she is pinning her complacency on me.
Why am I not happy for Tybeans? He got everything he has wanted. And his girlfriend is a sweet, and pretty nice from what I know about her.
Today was such a lovely Sunday.
I drifted in and out of conciousness all day, sleeping, dreaming, waking and back again. Sat out side in the grey repressed feeling world that just soaked up all the sounds, even of my MP3 player. Did my homework and just moved as though I was not quite lucid yet. No contact with the outside world. Till now. I need more days like this. Goodbye sweet Sunday.
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